Epiphanies

Transformus this year was an amazing time for me and I feel as though I came through it as a different person, transformed.

I came to realize that there are many times when I envy other people their ability to be entertaining and the center of attention-- to be so socially at ease. Or to be always on top of things and productive. But I shouldn't envy them, because those qualities have a downside as well. Those entertaining people are often craving the attention, and need it to feel complete. Those super productive people often don't have the capacity to sit back and enjoy the smaller things in life, or to simply just relax.

I also did a labyrinth that was profound to me. It was a path you took that ended at a fire where you burned a piece of paper that you endowed with your wishes. You then followed the same path back out. The path seemed to spiral closer to the middle, but there were often times where it actually took you further from your goal. As you were walking you'd pass people on the same section of path or travel with them, or glide by as they were on one adjoining section and you were on another. I felt it gave me a lot of insight on life and living and relationships.

Finally, and most obscurely, I came to some realizations on relationships. I kind of feel maybe there is such a thing as soul mates. But I don't think a soul mate can be found until you don't really NEED a relationship at all. When you're confident enough in yourself and know your self and your desires and wants and needs and can fulfill them by yourself or through the friends you have, not depending on one single person.

And Finally Finally-- Work hard, play hard. Now I know what playing hard is, maybe I can do better at working hard! Tomorrow we shall see!

I'm so grateful to this past week and all the friends who were there with me!